Oh Krishna! You have been my friend
from my childhood. You were my counsel and guide in the great battle who held
my mind in the state of “yoga” unmoved by the mightiness of my rivals. You held
me in the state of equanimity which resulted from the fusion of my mind with my
reason and which helped me view things with objectivity and go after my goal
with energy so conserved to vanquish the evil forces of the Kauravas. Why am I
so weak now, unable to perform my services with the same yogic spirit which
propelled me in the war?
Your mundane existence through your
unreasonable indulgence in the luxuries of kingship and the unresolved
miserable state of your subjects are the cause of your mortal sorrows. Your
quest for self aggrandizement is the cause of your worries which makes you
anxious. The doors of your mortal fort are now insecure and vulnerable to the
onslaught of your rivals.
In your descended state of enlightenment the
doors of your mortal fort have become insecure and allow temptations to creep
in through the doors which in your descended mortal state, you ignorantly left
unsecured. These temptations are the cause of your present anxious state. The
pride from your past achievement and the anxiety for securing the same make you
live either in the past that is dead or in the fear of the future which is
unborn and in the midst of these two, you ruin your present, as was the case in
your moments of despondency on the eve of the Great War.
Oh Krishna! The remover of all despair, why
have I become so disorganized in my thought and action? Why is my mind drawn
uninterruptedly in so many directions that before I can arrive anywhere my
thoughts lead me to newer directions in an unending journey which makes me
arrive nowhere? Oh Krishna! Why is my mind so unfocussed, why does the
instability of my mind make me a prisoner of quests that arrive nowhere? Why am
I a slave of this situation that appears insurmountable?
Hey Arjuna! You, who should be the
commander of situations, have now become their slave. The enemies that torment
you now have entered your fort through the seven doors which you have left
unsecure and unmonitored. These enemies that have taken over your fort
rendering you the king of a usurped kingdom are dangerous enemies who have now
found acquaintances settled from the past in your fort lying low only to gain
numbers and strength to unleash their force and take command.
Your
two eyes, the two ears, the two nostrils and your mouth are the seven doors, you
left unsecured and unmonitored through which your enemies have entered your
mortal fort and have captured you and add to their strength and numbers, each
passing day. These enemies are in command of your mind which they keep walled
now in their moment of advantage and hold the doors through which they allow
more recruits to come in and mighty as they become, render you a slave of the
situation.
Oh
Arjuna! As your charioteer and guide I had helped you secure these doors and
taken command of your mind as reason. I, as your reason liberated you of
bondage of your mind and through your mind contained the unruliness of your
senses, restricting the entry of the enemies that had enslaved you even then.
In your moments of kingship glory you, sometimes through your indulgence,
sometimes through your ignorance and at other times in active connivance though
the gratifications that these enemies offered, allowed them settlement in your
fort, which now, you find vulnerable. You alone are the architect of this
situation who at the end of your last gruesome journey, having realized your
“true self” and its purpose have caused and allowed this descent from the state
of enlightenment.
Oh Krishna! The unquestionable reality that
you reveal weakens me all the more. Help me please! My friend! My savior! My
guide! My Consciousness! Whom I have lost in the midst of the intruders, some
of which, through my unreasonable indulgence, I considered my friends and
through whom, allowed enemies to penetrate my fort. My enemies once again, are
greater in number and might, and as I realize this, I am awed.
Oh
Krishna! My indulgence with my temptations has made me a sinner. As king, I
have utilized the resources of my subjects in self aggrandizement. I have
gloated in prosperity forgetting to consider the redemption of my people the
subject of my righteous indulgence. I am a traitor to my people. In the slumber
of my kingship I failed to awaken myself to the reality of their misery. All
these men who battled on my side with the Kauravas, all these widows whose
husbands fell to the swords of the mighty Kauravas whom we had called “the evil
forces,” all these orphans who lost their parents in the war and still all
these maimed, who lost their limbs and all these widows who have become victims
of the affluent, in our society and all these slaves who serve the rich, and
all these daughters who have been commoditized by the rich as they use them to
further their vested interests making vulgarity the currency of their
transaction and the children, the servants in rich households. Oh Krishna! Was
this the greatness, I had aspired for my country “Bharat?
Were
these not the conditions prevailing during the rule of the Kauravas against
which I had fought the great battle? How am I different? I am the deserter of
my people. Oh Krishna! I am left with no hope for redemption. Oh Krishna! The
wrong that I have done is immense. How would I face Consciousness? How can I
expect forgiveness for my deeds? Oh Krishna! Even as I seek your guidance in
this moment of despair, I see no hope for redemption. I have descended to a
state which renders me unqualified for this journey.
Dear Arjuna, this is not the first time
that despondency gets born in you and this will not be the last. Sometimes your
established enemies and sometimes the agents of pleasure who are as great in
numbers and who generally find free access, to an indulgent, unsuspecting king
gloating in prosperity, have lead you into situations that render you, what you
are. It is easy to identify your enemies but very difficult to discern the
enemy in the garb of friendship, intruding your fort through the same doors as
do your enemies.
The
despondency that gripped you on the eve of the Great War was not spontaneous.
It had deep roots nurtured in time by the injustices meted to you and your
brothers. It was nurtured by the discriminatory attitude of your born blind
uncle, it was aggravated by the restrains of your eldest brother renowned for
his wisdom, who always restrained you from taking on your unjust cousin, it
grew through the conduct of your this very brother, who despite his wisdom lost
everything in the game of gambling and offered your wife as the ultimate stake
in the game and lost her.
Your
despondency grew when your teacher and granduncle, the latter known for his
righteousness did little as your cousins outraged the modesty of your wife in
the court in full view of the king and courtiers. When you returned from exile
which was decreed on you by the king and your cousin, and rightfully demanded
share of your heritance, you were denied and which occasioned the Great War. On
the eve of the battle when you found your army unmatched to the might of the
eagle shaped configuration of the Kauravas army you became frightened and your
personality disorganized.
To cover-up your weakness on the battle
ground you took refuge in emotionalism to run away from this war stating that
you would prefer leading the life of a vagrant mendicant than building a
kingdom on the corpse of your enemy cousins and when you found me unconvinced
you even tried to cover your weakness with a cloak of divinity seeking to
prefer the life of a sanyasi, an ascetic; to veil such coward escape from the
battleground.
Oh
Arjun! Each time that you were discriminated against and injustice became your
plight you were restrained sometimes by your own brothers and sometimes by your
own self not to allow your warrior attribute, a free expression resulting in
the over flooding of the reservoir with
such experiences that wanted to burst out but were restricted creating a
volcano within you wanting eruption but the outlet was always closed making
your mind a playground of dilemmas which
in the situation of the impending war sought to open out but the shear strength
of the enemy forces made you meek and you started attributing your weakness to
some divine cause and your pretended morality to avoid severing bonds with your enemy brothers who
stood before you with their mighty army to vanquish you and before which your
army was too small to give you any confidence.
This
is not the first time that ill influence of your experiences has captivated
your mind. You have lost your equanimity and fail to submit to reason. Your
mind is sick and needs treatment. The enemies that you had killed in the last
war have risen and regained their might again.
In your state of despondency, I had
revealed to you the knowledge of the ancient sages. The knowledge that dealt
with the principles, that should govern ideal human life and in the light of
this knowledge you realized how selfless acts helped you liberate yourself from
the tyranny of the “Ego “and free you from the bondage of your senses and the
sins that such slavery has the potential to make you commit. And now as a
result of the destruction of your ego, your mind seeks “Consciousness.” It is in
this state of desertion that the mortal turns to the immortal for peace and
direction.
Remember, Oh Arjuna! Mind is the man. When
the mind is anxious, the man is anxious. When the mind is at peace the man is
at peace. Your extrovert “Mind” itself becomes the introvert “Reason” in its
role as the examiner of the merit of the subjects collected through the senses
by your extrovert mind. Once evaluated the directed response from reason gets
conveyed to the extrovert mind, through it to the senses and through them, to
the mortal attributes, for communication to the external world. Once the
healthy organization of these elements, the senses, the mind and the reason
gets disorganized, the personality becomes unstable.
As long as there is unity of the mind and
reason, there is organization, once such unity is gone disorganization is the
result, the larger the gulf between the mind and reason, the greater the instability
and the chaos. Oh Dear Arjuna! The elements that constitute you need
restoration of orderliness.
Oh Krishna! Kind and merciful, minutely and
rightfully as you examine and reveal my present state, I am weakened all the
more. In my state of slumber in the midst of royal prerogatives and discretions
I have so ignorantly distanced myself from my true self and have become
unworthy of redemption. I have been a traitor to my responsibilities and my
people who considered me the ultimate repository of their faith which they
assigned into my kingship.
I am
an embezzler of my people’s faith and in your company, can now discern the pain
and disillusion in the pretended respect of my people for me who in some fear
of my stately authority have continued to be submitted to such misery as I have
brought upon them. I am a man reduced in my character, removed of my kingly
attributes, donned in the garb of the demon allowing no freedom of expression
to the misery of the miserable. Oh Krishna my sins are great, I deserve
denouncement from this kingdom or an abdication of the same.
Dear Arjuna, once awake one is not in
sleep. Chosen ignorance is a lullaby that perpetuates slumber. When the mind,
has the better of the reason sickness sets into a man. He sleeps more than he
is awake and this supine state keeps him confined within his self raised walls
that disconnect him with the realities that surround him. And while he is
asleep realities that assume greater dimensions in such time rise taller than
the walls of confinement to stare at him and who now shaken out of his sleep
frets as a child facing a giant.
You
Arjuna! That has risen from his slumber are a man awakened to realities, and a
true judge of his own acts, is a man amenable to change. I will be your companion one more time in this
journey into the true realm but before we do so let’s recount the elements that
cause what we are, because it is these elements that will be our aids in this
long journey and need to be organized.